Karma Is Digital

     When my family left in Nabua, the people who hurt us enjoyed and partied. They were really happy. When we were there on new year's day since my grandmother requested that we celebrate our new year with her, they showed us that their life is good. They even have fireworks and a lot of food. According to the sister of my grandmother, her daughter Jesusa who is working in Brunei has a boyfriend who is filthy rich and he doesn't know where to put the money. Same goes to her youngest daughter, Angelica. She is marrying a businessman whose family is known in our town. I told my family not to envy them and just forgive those people and just go on with our lives. We will still survive and it's better for us to live a simple life without complication. As for me, I don't care if my boyfriend is old and so-so. I am happy and in love. 

     And today, I just received a news that one of the sons of my grandaunt died. I know he drives recklessly.The party is over. They are now mourning. I called my mom and my stepfather and told them the news. My stepfather said, "buti nga". I told him don't do that. I just called to let them know that party is over and now they are mourning. But that does not mean we want it to happen. I told them that whatever happens we just let them be and we make our lives better. We don't mean any bad things to them. But he said it's karma. And our neighbors are agreeing to that. They were like gods in our little hometown. 

I just remembered this song when my neighbors told me that my grandaunt and her family are like crazy now. and I just got a call from my sister 30 seconds ago while writing this that my stepfather is mad at me. I told him to forget and forgive. He said he couldn't forgive those people. I don't know what happened to them. He was insulted in front of a lot of people. And my sister just newly gave birth to my niece and there was a typhoon when they had to transfer to a shanty in a small lot near the pig's house.I don't know what kind of difficulties they are going through. Well, I guess, I have a soft spot on me but my family don't.

     Life right now is really difficult. My plan was to stay and spend my vacation with my family in Bicol. But I went back to Manila. I can't take the situation. The house is a little small. It's just a quarter of the house which is now destroyed in Nabua. They don't have enough food. My daughter and brothers have to walk 30 minutes just to go to school. According to my brother, the teachers teach them basic things which they already know. My daughter and brother are discouraged from going to school. I promised them that once I get them in April they will go to a good school. I mean a school which has advance teaching. My brother and daughter are intelligent. I bought a small house in Teresa Rizal where they can stay temporarily. Yes, it's going to be temporary. I wanna make sure my family is always safe. I believe God will be my divine provider and He will take care of us. 

       I just wanna share this song to remind me that God is not sleeping. He sees everything that's going on. He will be the one who will guide and help me.